Belle of the County

Well, I've kinda been holding out on you to post until I got my emotions in check. Yesterday was not a pleasant day for me, but I'm trying to have a better outlook today. Everything is going to be alright.

I hobbled, rather pathetically, to my doctor's appointment yesterday in hope for some answers to all my problems. I should have known to put all my eggs in one basket.

Anyway, for the easy things, I did in fact pull a muscle in my groin area. Kinda embarrassing, and it is not very fun having your doctor poking and prodding around testing the spot. I did not tear a muscle, thank heavens, but he said it was pretty swollen and inflamed. No running, no walking, no crouching, no ANYTHING until the pain goes away. *Gulp.* Recovery time is anywhere between 2-6 weeks. *Big Gulp.* I don't have time for this. Anyway, I've decided that I'm going to be the rare exception that defies all rules and logic and heals at a very rapid rate. Like a superhero! :) Yesterday and today have been very painful. No medication will work, although doc said I could try. Ice it starting yesterday and then heat from here on out. I didn't go to work today. I've been laying around on my sofa like slug, immobile from the waist down. If I move, well, let's just not talk about that. I have to get back to work tomorrow so I need to get as healed up as fast as possible. I feel like a freak at work because I'm stuck in my chair and when I have to get up it's just a disaster.

Now, for the not fun topic...my passing out and dizzy spells. The doctor did a new EKG on me yesterday and it was drastically different from the EKG he did on my two years ago. Not in a good way. It appears I have some sort of an arrhythmia. In layman's terms, the doctor thinks the chambers of my heart are fighting over which chamber gets to control my heartbeat, and in doing so is messing up the blood flow and not getting enough oxygen to my brain. He took blood yesterday to rule out anything metabolic causing the issue and that came back fine today. I have to get myself around in a bit to go to the hospital to get fitted and setup with an event monitor that I have to wear for 30-days. I guess this thing records my heart when I tell it that I'm having an episode. I have no idea what I'm getting into there. Next Friday I'm having a stress echocardiogram. I guess they are going to take the images while I'm resting and then get me up and put me on a treadmill and then take the shots again. I have NO IDEA how they are going to do that when I can't walk right now, but I'll leave that to them to figure out. After those tests I will meet with a cardiologist yet to be determined.

Yea, I'm scared. I think everything will be fine and the doctor said if this is the case, I have a strange arrhythmia, it can be regulated with medication. So, that's the news. That's the verdict. I know that God has His hand on me and this is all for some reason. My friends and co-workers are trying to convince me that He's trying to tell me to slow down. Maybe so.

You all know just how much I fear heart issues, as that has been the nemesis that has killed off most of my family. I will admit that it was quite a kick in the gut when he showed me my new EKG.

I hate giving up running. It's my life; it's my release. I have no fear that a couple of weeks off from running is going to hurt me in San Antonio, I can get there and run the race. Will I get a new PR? Probably not. Will I finish? YES! I just need to be the best girl possible and stay off my feet for a while and let my muscles heal, let them figure out what is wrong with my heart, and then I can go back as a new woman. I'm being much more positive about this today than I was yesterday, so for that I'm super happy. Prayers are working already!

Well...I need to make the agonizingly slow shuffle to the bathroom so that I can try to get ready to get all hooked up at the hospital.

TODAY I LOVE: my sweet husband who has been nothing but AWESOME to his total immobile wife and my dear friends who make me try to find the bright side

SONG OF THE DAY: "Let Me Out" by Ben's Brother